team hard to take

[MTRedskinsFan]

Part of this post is my own thoughts and part not my own (to be explained).

For myself, since Taylor's death I've given little thought to football or the Skins. Tuesday was one of the worst days in my memory, ever. I did not watch the game today for two reasons: too much emotion overall, and because I knew the let down would be enormous, which leads me to the part of the post not really me talking.

Last week I met a guy who's been a Skins fan longer than I've been alive. He's followed every era of the team and knows every detail. He told me he can't stand to watch any longer because the disappointment is so huge. He said part of the disappointment is w/ Gibbs but it goes beyond any one man.

I don't know whether I'll watch another game this year. There is something so wrong it actually seems too big to really grasp. I love a lot of the individual players and the team legacy, but it's just too much.