advice needed...

[Trample the Elderly]

Well life is short and you're going to have to make your own moves. This seems like a huge can of dung you're opening. If all of this drama makes you happy then fine. You've helped me. Everytime I hear stories like this I'm thankful that I'm a whore and wouldn't get married for anything.

What I'd do in your situation (didn't read it all) is to drop all of it, move to a nice place, and start over. Get a fresh start. I mean you're already getting a divorce, why jump back into the fire? You should just chill out for awhile and be content with being you. Give a year and then start looking for someone with no strings attached.