death sucks

My dad just had major surgery this past Monday and all I could do was pray I (we) didn't lose him. I have always been a daddy's girl and the thought of him not being here really trips me out. I sat in the chapel at the hospital praying and crying the whole time & promising to of course live a better life if my dad would just be ok. I'm sorry to everyone out there who has lost a loved one-that's hard enough-but a parent, I can't even think about it. It makes my heart hurt. It's agreed that death sucks and my heartfelt sorrow to anyone that has lost someone close to them.